The things on my mind.

Late might thoughts

I was putting medicine on my daddy’s leg infection. And I felt like crying. More tmr. I’m really tired out after going out for the whole day today. And so happy to have seen you today.

Churning. / A tempest.

there’s so many thoughts that i have right now churning in my brain. i dont want to tell you this but i’m bitter. so, so bitter. and i dont like to be, because i dont like to be this kind of people who gets bitter because of these kinds of things. i dont like to feel that i’m so cynical and filled with some bits of irrational hate and absolute distaste, because i want to be the nice person, the awesome person (pardon the self praise i hope its not getting too much haha) that everyone thinks i am and that i should strive to continue to be. i mean, who doesn’t want to be nice right? but what happens when you being nice makes people think that you’re one who can be pushed about, one who would never have such irrational and hateful and pretty stupid thoughts in my head? i want to tell you this but i dont want either because it’ll be my own deep, dark secret. on one hand i actually kind of like having this kept close to me because i think i just found out something about myself.

that being said, i then again wish there’s someone i can talk to about this because its killing me. not in the literal sense, but i’m just. i just keep feeling down and angry and very very bitter.

i hope this did not make much sense. i didn’t want it to. and its an accumulation of a few things simultaneously.

/edit/

you seem to be giving me up.